had to crap out that last post before i could move forward in my life. it is what it was. and what it was it isn’t anymore. i have heavy decision making dark matter in a sack over my shoulder all the time.
that must be why… my new thoracic mri showed 4 black discs, two bulging and deforming my spinal cord. no nerve damage yet. my lumbar disc is also “bulging”. this is fine in your 30’s, the thoracic results are, um… not fine.
new tests are to be performed. medication maintenance is now handled by a pain specialist. some of my pain may be nueropathy.
i cannot get over the news from a healer in another city that i am keeping something very hateful low in my chakras and if i don’t let it go, i will only grow the pain syndrome i have now.
i’ve looked so hard for the reason to all of this. i have searched myself. i cannot find any undue anger just lying around unused.
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